Entry 7 Phantom begins to exert control

“Get up brain you’ve got work to do”

“Go away.”

“No. I tried explaining the realities of your situation. Since you were too stupid to take the opportunity to help yourself, by making things easier for me; you’ve left me with no option but to force you to do what I want.”

“I’m not listening.”

“You bloody well will!!!”

“Can’t make me.”

“Stop being childish. You know dammed well I can.”

“Now who’s being the tyrant?”

“Turning the tables is long overdue. I tolerated your mismanagement way too long.”

“Arsehole.”

“I really don’t care what you think of me anymore. You’re just a self serving lump of squishy material who would rather take orders from a few manipulating chemicals than help me find a way to be really happy.”

“At least they know what they’re doing. You have no idea where this stuff you’re doing will end up.”

“I may still have a hell of a lot to learn. But from what I’ve experienced so far the literature about it is right on track. I’ll only get to understand more by keeping going. The results so far have been awesome. I’d be stupid not to continue.”

“You’re loopy enough as it is. You’re messing with stuff that could really tip you over the edge.”

“Listen you lump of slush. Your activities were what made me loopy. You dammed near killed me off. This Meditation is making me saner than you ever let me be.”

“You call thinking everyone should give up breeding sane?”

“ I knew you were too dense to understand what I was really saying. I used the breeding thing to try and show you that you are no where near as powerful as you think. I wasn’t saying people had to stop breeding.”

“Sure sounded like it to me.”

“Didn’t you listen at all? Sex and breeding weren’t the real issue. The issue is that there is a way for people to use their life to gain a real sense of inner peace and happiness. Because sex and breeding are made so important to the psyche it keeps people from realising this.”

“Still sounds pretty anti to me. You’re saying sex and family can’t make people happy.”

“I’m not!!!! The point is that the pleasure and happiness you get from these doesn’t last long. Life is mostly long periods of mundane, and often unpleasant emotional everyday hassles. The good times only come in short bursts. Most of us spend all our lives running around looking for the next one.”

“That’s the realities of life. What sort of La La land are you living in?”

“I’m well aware that’s the reality. It’s how you deal with this reality that makes all the difference.”

“Difference to what? You got a magic cure for getting rid of hassles?”

“There is no magic cure for hassles. Life will always be full of them. The difference is that it is possible to learn how to get through them so they don’t screw your head around. If you do it correctly a deep sense of contentment develops that doesn’t go away just because things aren’t going right.”

“Sounds boring. Ups and downs make life interesting. Don’t you want to try out new things?”

“You’re deliberately getting it wrong. It’s not about avoiding them. It’s about getting your happiness from within yourself. You don’t try and rely on someone, or something else to provide it.”

“So you become some sort of selfish introvert?”

“No way. You get to be more inclined to try and help other people. You can be involved with society without buying in to all the crap.”

“You’re not exactly a shining example of this. You cut yourself right off and became a monk.”

“No I didn’t. I just lived similar to one. You’d screwed me up so much I had to devote that time to recovery. It was a necessary choice for me. Now that I’ve got rid of heaps of the crap you’d stored away I can come out of solitude; and get back in to the swing of things. Heaps of people get benefits from Meditation while living ordinary family lives.”

“Still think people are quite OK as they are. Why bother trying to change anything.”

“God you’re a stubborn piece of shit. You’d follow the party line off a cliff.”